Fear my quack

Over

2005-06-25T16:51:00.000-07:00

I just ended this blog and moved to myspace.

http://www.myspace.com/withoutmypride

Life's smaller victories

2005-05-13T08:56:00.000-07:00

I'm happy.
and I have an awesome girlfriend.
and horrible gummer;

:)

I might be sophomore senator next year (voting goes today). And I just a kick ass email from a teacher saying that since I'm on the Honor Roll I get to watch 'Psycho' today (getting away from class)

All Better

2005-05-09T08:32:00.000-07:00

Lauren kissed my owies.

They call it "Bike vs Auto"

2005-05-02T21:00:00.000-07:00

I cross the street, just like the street before - and the one before that.

I hummed a tune as I reached half way across the intersection. Turning my head to veiw oncoming traffic. I only had time enough to think before the white Honda hit me:

"That's going to hit me."

The Honda smacks into my front tire, the force of the hit throws me onto his hood. I continue flying forward with my bike going a similar direction beneath me. As I bounce off the car it decreases from its speed of 30 miles per hour. I land on my right hand side scraping my knee -and most notedly - my hip and knee.

My helmet probably saved my life.

Three people witnessed the accident - one of which called the Ambulance. The guy who it me name was Dave. And his name his alone proves to you what kind of a person he was. Perfectly normal - tall, normal wieght, normal cloths, short cut hair, jus livin.

He was kind to me.

I got up to fast and hurt myself in the process, everything got really bright - then I laid down.

The Ambulance came soon enough.

Hey diddle-diddle to the people in the middle

2005-04-18T20:58:00.000-07:00

Our anniversay was last sunday, and GOD it was awesome!
I gave her my gift to her around 2, then we went to a massage 3:30 to 4:30, Then we had a suana and shower and bath and sex from 4:30 to 5.
Afterwards we ate great sushi, and continued that great evening with a late showing of Sin City.

Everything was great, and after all of that, she showed me my present - a great Warhal like drawing of ducks. It looks fucking awesome!

I send a million little loved shaed emails to Ian who hasn't been living the best life has to offer.
And I still gloat over our accomplishments in Blue Monday Press.

- Interesting piece of info: Ian's name (Ian kappos) has directed over 11 new people to our site.
who uses ians name as a search string?

Stronger then ever, then ever before!

2005-04-14T14:17:00.000-07:00

KMFDM provided the background beats for the pillow fight with these songs:

WWIII

D.I.Y.

ATTACK/RELOAD

WITCHHUNT

and JIHAD

The PillowFight was AWESOME! After we played the scoring games (freshmen won, then second luch sophomores won) we played some recreational games that were a hit. We even got teachers Mr. Presiado and Mr. Harris to go at each other. Presaido one by seven points. Here is our staring advertisment for todays game:
http://www.bluemondaypress.com/Pillow_fight_gavin.gif

Stronger then ever, then ever before!

2005-04-14T14:00:00.000-07:00

KMFDM provided the background beats for the pillow fight with these songs:
WWIII
D.I.Y.
ATTACK/RELOAD
WITCHHUNT
and JIHAD

The PillowFight was AWESOME! After we played the scoring games (freshmen won, then second luch sophomores won) we played some recreational games that were a hit. We even got teachers Mr. Presiado and Mr. Harris to go at each other. Presaido one by seven points.
Here is our staring advertisment for todays game:
http://www.bluemondaypress.com/Pillow_fight_gavin.gif

Pillows, Students, Bigotry

2005-04-14T09:39:00.000-07:00

KMFDM headlines the soundtrack for today's school pillow fight I get the honor of hosting.
It's gonna be a slaughter.

Schedule!

2005-04-11T15:47:00.000-07:00

That's right, Unhallowed Sanctum is coming out early this may - and it's gonna be great!
Here is a preveiw for our schedule up till crunch time.

This Week:
About the Authors
Finish Editing
Send to Reida Reveiw

Next Week:
Organize Paypal
Make PDF
Send to interested authors

Week After:
Final edits (based on reviews)
Place Advertisements
Upload Paypal to site
Start Audio Books project

I can't wait!
Besides that...
I went paintballing over the weekend, and now I'm an official "baller". That was a shit load of fun, I'm glad my friend Gaven took me. Gaven's really good at Flash design (if you don'tknow what flash looks like -click here- ) but doesn't know crap on how to design a website (like I).
So, I've tried to extend a helping hand, but with making my moms website, Blue Monday's, and the school's - I'm poofed.

Cya round

My actions

2005-04-07T09:14:00.000-07:00

There’s been constant turmoil with the creation of Blue Monday’s site. Sadly, as good of a webmaster I am, I have a problem with reviewing my work before going live. There have been small mistakes all over the site for the past week that only now is starting to shape up.

Besides that, after being caught by her dad, my girlfriend and I have been avoiding the house. It’s not how I want to handle the situation but I don’t have much of a say. I’ll wait until she is comfortable enough to talk to her dad.

I don't know why, but today has been such a bright day for me (mood wise) even though it's cloudy outside. I look around and everyone seems happier, it's great.
Maybe when I see Lauren today she will be too.

It's been a long days night

2005-04-04T12:51:00.000-07:00

and sadly I have not been sleeping like a dog.

Over the past month I have gone to Death Valley (awesome), been caught eating out my girlfriend (by her father), and thought-up this strange piece of logic:

If the Devil was the snake, when eve ate the apple... Then don't we owe the society we have today, to the Devil?

Also, my recent victory over Editor Ian Kappos is not to be over looked.

Sorry for the huge chronological gap between posts.

Ta ta.

True Death

2005-03-14T20:49:00.000-08:00

This weekend my Grandfather died.

The doctors said that the man came into the hospital testiong positive for Crystal Meth before gaining a hernia. He shortly fell into a coma and they pulled his plug sunday.

The man lived lif ethe way he wanted to, with no regard to his children (my mother and her sister) leaving them at gas stations without noticing for twenty minutes.

On his last visit to our house, I made him leave yelling at the top of my lungs.
When he had left I told my mother I never want him in this house again.

He never will be.

I WIN!!!!!

2005-03-08T13:49:00.000-08:00

Yes I won a ticket to tonights Kings game!!!
B-Ball baby yeah! All shit load of friends and I get taken by my favorite teachers to the game.
All because someone backed out and I had a 4.0 at the semimester.
I dint even knwo I ever had a 4.0

GIVLXURSJ IM HAPPPY!!!!

Sarcasm also means tearing flesh

2005-03-08T08:12:00.000-08:00

And I cant wait to flip off the devil before I die.

Work was hecka/hella/ugh last night, just a big CF it was so busy I had to start running on instinct. Then some one calls and I answer the phone as usual:
"The Way Within, how may I help you?"
The guy on the over lin says: "Hi, I live on Florin and Freeport how do I get there?"
SO I go into this detailed way to get to the Way Within from where he lives, not realising how close his home is to my school. After my detailed directions he asks:

"So Kyle, hows cleanning toilets?"

GOD IT WAS MY FRIEND AL!!!! Bastard.

Does the mechanical God herd electrical sheep?

2005-03-03T07:59:00.000-08:00

God is a dictatorship.
On thing moving amazing masses of people into their own doom or salvation.
Who else has made such a vast number of humans die for the signular persons veiws?
Hitler.

It's funny I noticed the amazing way just seeing over people acting one way can make you change. I was crusing the site 'rings' and I found myslef slowly becomming that these things may be true, not really believing but just feeling the fear bubbling up inside me. After veiwong the 'tape' I really started feeling scared.

A day later I just feel like a fool who followed the flow to long.

New & Confused

2005-02-28T08:38:00.000-08:00

My best friend (Rancid Milk) recently got very angry with me in relation to his latest girlfriend. I was basically resemble for them going out, and they have been going out for about 2 weeks.

NOW - the dilemma

I made a bet with her before they went out. I said "this guy is better than any guy you old date at your school, give him two weeks to prove it." So, those two weeks ended yesterday, and Rancid Milk over heard me asking her if I was right, and even though she said 'yes' he still felt played.

Now, seriously, what relationship doesn't have a two week probation?

And if she likes you now, what makes the relationship un genuine?

I think if Rancid would just step out of the box and look at it for a moment he would understand.
It was a kind mean thing to do, but please its nothing to make your girlfriend cry about.

I don't know, I've had a large amount more relationships then him, and don't find this to be strange. If she likes you, she likes you.

If she's going out with you, what's wrong?!

The coffin of my head

2005-02-23T10:13:00.000-08:00

Rain decorates the backgrounds
of all the portraits in my head.
Figments of still moments
moments of love a dread.

The brain masquerades as an emotion
to tease the senses, and stir lifeless matter.
Things we’ll bare to witness.
Smiling while our hearts shatter.

Loving the pain for the emotion.
Simplifying ourselves to pure
deterioration.

Le Cheese

2005-02-21T19:17:00.001-08:00

Perhaps the cheesy-ist poem I have written in a long time.
but its for her, and thats all tha matters

----Declaring love using the sound E-------
4 my laurs
So it seems, my reality
has been carved by a T.V.

Those you lookupon with jealousy.
You don't see them
turn green.
When they turn and see me,
holding you so highly.
When I look to the skyand a sign blocks the skyline
I look at it and realize
the girl bared is all mine.

So it seems, my reality
has been carved by a T.V.
For when I see you
you seem to me,
Like somebody
you'd view in jealousy.

Unhallowed Sanctum

2005-02-16T20:19:00.000-08:00

Advertising is a bitch.
Unhallowed Sanctum - a Blue Monday Press release

I have been finding it hard to submit us to big name search engines, which sucks even more.
But we get vistors, and people are submitting, so I should be happy. :)

Life has delt Ian a lucky hand.

Joy in Repition

2005-02-14T20:25:00.000-08:00

The events of Valentine's Day only further prove my previous post.

Loco

2005-02-13T20:01:00.000-08:00

Dear readers,

I write you this entry as I drink directly out of my coffee maker.
Life contunious on a upward slant, with only memories and minor set backs to bring me down. Unhallowed Sanctum id doing beautifully with over 360 pages veiws over the past few days.
I have recently discovered my deep inthatuation with female gentaily, and wemon as a spiritual body I worship through sex.

I sleep at night a dream of how to please the woman of my life tomarrow. I close my eyes and immediatly begin to dwell on a mental image of a vigina.

I can not seem to help myself, but am very humble about it.

Ciao

LIVE

2005-02-11T08:18:00.000-08:00

Blue Monday Press is LIVE

www.bluemondaypress.com

Yahoo! (not the company)

Square

2005-02-08T13:10:00.000-08:00

So my first day of work was strenuous, but livable. I feel i grew from it.
I have bee thinking about my girlfriend a lot lately, more than usuall.

Our future.
us
alone.
"Yummy" as she might say. Our aniversary is comming up.

I'm happy, life seems so leveled today.

Quite Contemplation

2005-02-07T08:47:00.000-08:00

Today is the day.
My first day of work, I will be manning the whole ship.
Only one day, five straight hours of receptioning.
Rejoice?

I'll rejoice the 50 bucks at the end of the day.

---

I heard something that drove me crazy last week.
Someone spread the word that "Mormons think all non white rascists will go to hell"

What a load of crap.

Please, people, grow a damn brain.

Mystique

2005-02-04T09:09:00.000-08:00

As I teenager, I'm accustomed to have a cold empty feeling in the pit of my stomach that always manages to bring the corners of my mouth down.

But to day is different

I contribute this lifting feeling in my chest, to my wonderfull girlfriend.
Never in my life have I ever felt so secure.
I love you Lauren.

Smoke 'em if you got'em

2005-02-03T08:51:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I came up with a brilliant phrase when conducting a bit of business with friends:

"Because money invested in my friends, is money invested in me."

I'm proud.
Over watching Ian's internal struggles really turns my stomach over, it sucks the conditions he gets to live in.
Lauren has made me some special secret "gift" that I don't get to see until the end of the day when I go to her house. I CANT WAIT! She was teasing me all last night.
I also finally finished all my training last night, so I can begin working next Monday for $$$.

HAPPY!

The Noose Tightens

2005-02-02T13:21:00.000-08:00

I wish Ian luck on asking out Christina.

I wonder why poeple seem to be so blind? Sometimes I see the government of the 60's replaying itself out in our genereatation except we cant see. IF you look around you find it. The small mess ups, the choked media exclusives, the uncommon university campus article revealing the goverments control over how we see the world.

How could one organization streamline a millions peoples consciousness to believe that people they had never herd of before are bad? Do you every see the "indepth" story on why we actrual are taught to hate these people?

NO.

Whats worse, non of the opposing veiws are going to be recorded by history. Bush willl be veiwed as a wonderful war tinme president. Screw that.

Mental Health Day

2005-02-01T13:58:00.000-08:00

Today, after a long, long, night... My mother and I have decided it would be the best for me to take a "Metal Health" day off from school. So as I run around the e house naked, you can feel comfortable knowing that I will be sane tomorrow.

The original "Mental Health" excuse came from my dads work at the DOJ, where their burn out rate is obscenely high.

ME and my little duck feathers will now return to frolic-ing.

Life and Death

2005-01-28T10:04:00.000-08:00

Life - My girlfriend and other secret projects

&

Death - stupid school projects and a bad looking future in work.

Hopefullly today will be good.

Your ordinary first post?

2005-01-24T09:50:00.000-08:00

Full or grammatical flaws, salted with spelling errors...
Usually, containing only one meaningless word, funny only to the author.
Easily overlooked or regaurded as a flaw in character.

Aren't blogs supposed to be about life?
Supposed to be about something exciting?
Arent I supposed to have some extreme happining every moment of my life to fulfill my readers needs for brainless gawking?

I refuse, my life is not always action packed (but I will inform you when it is). Currently it looks as if I will have a good day.
School is minimum schedule (get out at 12:30),
my mom seems happy with me and is being positive about my new job with her - thats rare.
I will squeeze in a quick kiss with Lauren before going to work, and will probably call Ian later.